In My Own Agony

With her article on The Agony and the Ecstasy, I really appreciate Mrs Parkes for her courage to speak the mind of a person suffering from a mental illness, (as we know that only a few would admit having that illness.) It's a good thing to know what is working in such mind. It can help us understand them.

Kudos as well to Elizabeth. She has taken care of her mom and still doing her best to understand and work on things for her healing. She is graced with such a strength that enables her to hold on and remain hopeful even at her young age.

Their articles have an impact to me for I had dealt with a mentally ill person, my brother. He's been into mental rehabilitation. When I used to stay with him in our house, I had those sleepless nights. Often I would cry in pity as I felt helpless hearing him talking to himself. He is more of a schizophrenic due to a nervous breakdown. When I tried to dissect some of his write-ups and the words he says, (though they are mostly incomprehensible) there is a bit of frustration, of regrets, and a great sense of loneliness. I really pity him and I feel so helpless... for we aren't that good friends and we had history that caused our biases... and I can see no other means for us, his own family that can help him in his healing. I felt so down and believed that it was a mission unaccomplished, but it is with great humility that I finally admit that I can do nothing with it. 'You can't be a disciple on your own place,' as they would say.

Until now I only cling to my prayers, to the miracles that God showers in our days. I remain in surrender to God, the great healer, that only Him can heal my brother and our wounded hearts. Your prayer will surely help us in this struggle and we'll be grateful for each prayer offered for this special intention.

Thanks and God bless us all! (",)

"Love is embracing all, and loving especially the unlovables."